Category Archives: My Utmost for His Highest

My Utmost – Am I Looking To God?


the cloak of darkness is a deeper black

squint or strain, my soul’s eyes can’t penetrate

recesses fill with regrets of my past

so distracting that I can’t concentrate

worry and dread act as partners tonight

working as one to cloud my tomorrow

removing my joy and my zest for life

turning up, down, and smiles to sorrow

i seek peace through intellect and effort

exploring my thoughts for any way out

searching for answers but finding no comfort

confidence and faith yield humbly to doubt

down on my knees, cry in anguish to Him

light overtakes me, His peace rushes in


“Look to Me, and be saved . . .”  —Isaiah 45:22


Our difficulties, our trials, and our worries about tomorrow all vanish when we look to God. Build your hope on Him. No matter how many things seem to be pressing in on you, be determined to push them aside and look to Him. “Look to Me . . . .” Salvation is yours the moment you look.



My Utmost – The Nature of Reconciliation

He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him —2 Corinthians 5:21

“Other faiths deal with sins— the Bible alone deals with sin. It is revealed throughout the Bible that our Lord took on Himself the sin of the world through identification with us, not through sympathy for us. And now anyone can experience that reconciliation, being brought into oneness with God, on the basis of what our Lord has done on the cross.”


He who knew no sin

was made to be sin for us

that we might be right


He took on our sin

so that our sins might not reign

He died once for all


we have died to sin

buried with Christ in baptism

raised to walk in Him


the newness of life

means never to die again

alive by God’s grace

My Utmost – The Trial of Faith

If you have faith as a mustard seed . . . nothing will be impossible for you —Matthew 17:20


i really thought that i could die

give up my life for the One gave His

believed in my heart and my mind’s eye

though He slay me, yet i will trust Him


but then He chose not to heal her pain

to bring her home and leave us here alone

my faith saw healing that never came

a glorious plan that he didn’t condone


i’ve always trusted that His ways weren’t mine

His plan always worked together for good

i never questioned that He would do right

i thought i trusted, thought i understood


but faith is not my getting because i believe

it’s not by my trust that He accomplishes His will

it’s about my surrender to what i can’t see

it’s allowing Him to control while i am still


though He slay me or mine, i will trust His ways

my anger and hurt He is able to console

so i worship Him and trust Him for all of my days

to be involved in my part of His perfect whole




My Utmost – The Eternal Goal

Because you have obeyed me . . . I will bless you . . . —Genesis 22:16-17

i long to hear the voice of God

whispering quietly in my ear

a brush, a nudge, a gentle touch

all signs to me that He is near

i’ve talked to God for most of life

praying, fasting, and seeking

i realize that the conversation goes both ways

but only in the quiet when i’m listening

it’s tough to discern, i can scarce make it out

there’s a sea of voices all my own

but when i hear Him in the midst of it all

a light on my path is clearly shown

so in daily obedience i will seek after Him

deliberately quieting my mind and heart

in discipline i have hidden His word away

and through listening, each day will i start